The Spirituality of Motherhood

“The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother never. A mother is something absolutely new” — OSHO

This tiny being that was once inside me, now lie beside me. I think of how she is her own person now, breathing and growing, ebbing and flowing. We are energetically linked and we always will be. As she now lies beside me. I can't help but think, will she have kids of her own some day?

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Where to begin? Well… when it comes to motherhood there is so much that is definitely not commonly talked about, that I am willing to talk about…

Motherhood is super spiritual and it’s native to deny that.

I was surprised, and noticed just from the first trimester, how much is not talked about. I don’t believe it’s possible to cover everything. Some things you do just have to experience in order to understand… but still there is a lot that is just not mentioned.

 For anyone who is energetically sensitive, who then gets pregnant. I’ll say you’re probably in for a wild ride because pregnancy, labor, birth, and motherhood are all extremely spiritual, and dare I even say psychedelic. 

To carry life is to invite another being, another soul into your physical body to be temporarily housed, while your body then creates a house for this soul, a body of its own. 

When I was first pregnant with my daughter, I knew it. I denied it. But I knew it. I was traveling internationally, and continued to get really sick. When I connected with my womb I felt life in it, but I didn’t want to believe it. 

Womb carrying humans have a huge responsibility, the responsibility of making decisions that don’t just impact us, but also the future. These decisions can take place in a moment and ripple out into all time and space. It’s a huge responsibility, yet we are capable of making decisions like that. And this isn’t to say there aren’t other decisions that don’t carry weight – there are, but when it comes to motherhood and the spirituality of motherhood, this is a part of it. 

As I meditated with my womb I asked my daughter if she was sure she wanted to be born in today’s day and time — I explained to her all that’s going on, the craziness, the uncertainty both politically and in my personal life. Her answer was still yes, she was ready. Even though I wasn’t sure I was. 

As I navigated pregnancy there was a reckoning. Between who I was, who I will become and how supported my ultimate decision was by the universe, my guides and my community. 

As the nine months were coming to a close and I was approaching the birth portal. I knew birth would be the most challenging thing I’d yet to do. Birthing my daughter earthside means there’s another life taking place here on the earth. It changes the course of history, because this being can and will make decisions that will affect life here on earth, no matter how “big” or “small” these decisions matter. And in the process of that taking place, I in the process will be changed, transformed. 

This little being holds in her body the perfect and messy combination of my partners family lineage, history, and stories as well as my family lineage, history and stories. 

Life, death, past, present and future are all connected. 

The act of becoming a mother can be a beautifully deep portal of transformation if we allow it to be. But it does require our participation and awareness.

It’s true that there are people who pop out babies like it no big deal. But, to live an intentionally conscious life means sitting with the weight of the decisions you make, how it impacts you and the people around you regardless of intention. 

Motherhood is a big responsibility and a deeply spiritual journey. To steward a life is a gift. It requires surrender. Not everyone who will be a mother initially wants to be a mother, and not everyone who wants to be a mother will mother physical biological children in this lifetime. 

Why? I don’t know, it’s beyond me. 

But sometimes we’re given opportunities in life that sometimes just don’t circle back around. Sometimes opportunities approach us once, and they never come back again. Pregnancy and motherhood are like that. 

Motherhood and spirituality is a big topic that will take more than one blog post to talk about. And even then I’ll probably only scratch the surface. The spiritual realm dwells among us, and there is so much mysticism in the mundane. 

As I share my birth story and the stories of other mothers I hope to share more of the mysticism that shows up in caring for a soul in this way, as well as learn more about it myself.